Some women may judge a mom who's just had a caesarean section (thinking she's "too posh to push"), but I'm proud to say I had one... and then another. I wouldn't have chosen it that way from the get-go, but once I had one I made the decision to deliver my second child via caesarean section versus trying for a vaginal birth. Here's why.

So, here's me, nearly five years ago: My water broke in the wee hours of the morning three weeks before my due date. My husband rushed me to the hospital, I was induced with Pitocin and spent the next 12 hours in labor, waiting for my cervix to dilate. And it did -- finally, and little by little -- but then it retracted.

By this time, my OB-GYN was getting concerned about getting my baby out. I hadn't even started pushing yet and we were closing in on 20 hours since my water had broken. So I pushed. And pushed. For two hours. And my baby wasn't going anywhere -- he wouldn't fit through my pelvis and my cervix was still retracting.

My OB-GYN sent everyone out of the room and spoke to me in private about doing an emergency caesarean section. I shed a few tears, tossed my dreams of having my baby "the normal way" out the window and was wheeled into the surgery room. Minutes later, my husband and I were shedding more tears -- of joy -- as we held the most precious treasure: Our son.

Just 14 months later, my husband and I sat in my OB-GYN's office after he'd confirmed we were indeed expecting our second baby. My head began to spin as I thought about going through labor again only to have to resort to a caesarean section. As my due date approached, I realized my concerns (aside from my baby's safety, natch) came down to feeling the need to have a vaginal delivery, to feel as if I'd "earned my stripes," so to speak.

About six months into my second pregnancy, I forgave myself for having my first caesarean section. And I gave myself permission to have a planned caesarean section for my second birth. It was scheduled, it was easy -- compared to the 20 hours I spent in labor with my first child. But the satisfaction of holding my sweet baby girl was no less significant. In fact, I realized as we locked eyes for the very first time, it didn't matter how she'd arrived. She was -- she is -- here.

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Robin Farr June 08, 2012
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I'm always glad to see people writing about this and owning whatever decision they make. I had a scheduled c-section with my son because he was breech and I still resent it. I have given birth (I guess - I still struggle with that) and yet I haven't had a single contraction.

I'm due again in October and really hoping for a VBAC. But this time I'm trying my hardest to accept that it may not happen so I'm not so caught up in the "how" next time. Whatever will be, will be. (Right?!)